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• Mood: good!
• Music: oh yeah by macy gray

 

Hi!

I have NO clue why, but I just feel SO good today!

mom and dad were arguing today, mom isnt takin it easy even though i KNOW shes feeling sick, im not at school, work is pilling up, i'm sposed to be cleaning my room (procrastinators RULE!) i have a NEED to go to the gym, and i feel GREAT!

http://www.procrastinators.org/ hehehe, i found this site while lookin up how to spell procrastinators who knew there were 2 t's in it? anyway....

i must say, i am feeling better. my goal is to be in the gym next thursday. i know, soon, but trust me, that class is easy, and dont worry, ill take my time

as for mom, i dont know, she says she's feeling better, and yet she stayed home. yes, there are alot of chores to be done. i just wish for once she'd be nice to herself and take it easy. work can be made up, but you cant get over a cold or flu or w/e like you can built up work.


anyway, mom went shopping, much to my distress, and bought me this HUGE bag of sunflower seeds, boy am i gonna have fun getting through these

i blame mom, shes the one who got me on the things, and in turn, i got her AND josh, sparky and snips, on those yummy snyders pretzels peices things.

hehe, junk food rox.

oh, and thanks to a certain tv show that i absolutly love to peices (pretzel peices) gilmour girls, i am now hooked on the Bangles as well. hey, walk like an egyptian

ok, enough silly faces.

um - oh yeah! i took my first shower yesterday! to say the least, it was refreshing. i know, ew, no shower since last wednesday, how gross! no, ok, i sponge bathed, ok. but, im glad i could finally get those annoying adhesive (?) stains off from where the IV was.

and i dont know, i mean ever since puberty came knockin down my door, ive been hungry ALL the time, but this is getting rediculous! im eating like all the time, and my stomach STILL growls at me! GR!... ok, yes a BIT of an exaggeration, i know, but you get the point?

cant wait to get ot the gym and work off all the flub and flab and bleh... next thing you know, ill weigh 130 pounds, the thing ive always been worried about. hello, duh, its mostly muscle, i know, but the national health care place doesnt, according to them, im over-weight *snort* they have problems...

but isnt it true. yes, there is a HUGE difference from being overweight for fat and for muscle... but it still gives you high blood pressure and heart problems. just not kidney problems and other fat-related issues, right?

oh, and guess what - according to the latest height recording from the doc, i am offically 5 feet and 2 - AND 1/2  - inches!!! yeah, i know, a whole half-inch higher than last time, i feel so tall

but, then again, i was wearing shoes.... but does it really count? i mean, they were chucks not like high heels or something - AND i was standing as tall as i could.

LOL

ok, enough with that.

*sigh* ok, i give up, ill clean my room....  im goin in, and if i dont make it out by dinner, call in the SWAT, ill be needing them....

wish me luck


ps - HELP! im being plagued by annoying stupid advertisements!!! i hate poker thank you very much!

-tigg

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• Mood: hopeful to say the least
• Music: white houses, vanessa carlton
• Hero of the day: mom!
• Clothes: PJs

 Hey guys,

i recently discovered how much people (or atleast i) use my abs daily. that would be alot. i have a pot belly now, becase my abs are relaxed instead of slightly tight. but we'll get to that later

ok, breifly, grandma and grandpa couldnt make it. the weather was just too cold, their plane... plain? ugh, anyway, it wouldve frozen and crashed... then burned, so we didnt want that, so the sent a gorgeous bouquet? of flowers and a card saying 'Get we'll soon, All our loue Grandma + Grandpa' the flourist guy who wrote that needs to work on his (or her) penmanship, i think...

um... then on yesterday, the big day we were all waiting for to be over, lets see:

we woke up at 5 AM which in my book is NOT an hour of day nor night.... just some wierd section of its own, along with 4M...
we arrived at the hospital, Mary Washington Hospital, at 6-ish,  fancy place for blood-suckers paradise, if you ask me *clears throat*, ill get to that later...

by the time they gave me the stuff to knock you out, i was kinda nervous, not about the operation, but its effets... affects?

anyway, i remember being rolled in the OR and then the doctors talking to me, and to eachother, very nice for blood-suckers.... anyway, i woke up to pain and discomfort, of course i couldnt exactly call it 'waking up' the rest of the day was full of naps, pain, discomfort, and very strange complicating and utterly confusing dreams that made no sense whatso-ever.

you know, the gas they give you to make you sleep, does give you dreams, but the stuff through the IV does.... im not sure which i perfer...

ok, obviously both have bad side-affects? i have been acting like a brain-damaged baby... or old person... just re-visiting my childhood.

i waitched 'Little Bear' and 'Franklin' and 'Lazy Town' today. although i cant completely blame lazy town on the operation. Hey, its got ok tumbling, nice singing, horrible songs and mind-numbing plots... if you could call them plots at all. just the thing a girl in recovery needs, right?

ok, about he baby or old person thing. yesterday i could get up, move at all, really, or even use the bathroom without help. yes, as humiliating as it sounds, i adjusted quite well, actually. thats what freaks me out. i didnt mind having my mom help me dress or eat... i blame it on the fluids they were putting into my bloodstream, you see, they help you 'relax' basically they turn you into a brain-dead zombie.

ok, and the eating and using the bathroom part was... were most interesting. the rule was i had to use the bathroom and keep food down befroe i could go home. well, i found out what happens if you break that rule. they hook you up to a bag and you cant go home. it turns out that you have a bag on (or in) while when? you're under the knife. gee, musta missed that part, cause i woke up sore... gosh, see, my intellectual average is low and dropping....

anyway, i guess i went home early, then cause i had ordered a bagel (which actually wasnt half bad) and creamcheese (which was more than half bad). i had scraped off the creamcheese and ate the bagel only to go home and puke it right back up.

so, all day yesterday i had had nothing but 2 saltine cracker, and that was only so then i cold take some pain killers. which didnt so much as kill pain as it hooked up and joined the Let's - Make - Jess - Hurt party. wow, that was a hard to typ sentance...

heh, if Mr.T saw that last sentence he'd be disappionted in is A+ pupil.

so today, i actually got to get up to standing and walking. then after lunch (and a nap) i proceeded to the 'walking and breathing at the same time' level. you see, it used to be that breathing hurt if i took in too big of a breath, then it just hurt whether i breathed or not, and right now its not hurting too bad, which is either a gold star for the painkiller or my road to recovery is getting shorter. i'm betting its the painkiller.

gee, sorry if im sounding kinda.... well... gray on you guys, but i think i know how sirius feels in book five, just before he broked away (wow, i think i set a record, 'broked') to save his godson only to be killed by his evil cousin with a bad hair day.

only, the only cousins i have is a 3 year old in texas and an 18 yearold in college across the country... i guess you could also say its across the continent, but that would make way for more spellin errors.

lemme take a break and ill get right back to you guys.

eh, dont think my stomache cared too much for that break.

ok, where was i? ok, continents and bad hair days, gotchya

hehe, gotchy-yuh, hehe, sounds japanese... however, its a language i most recently learned called americanese. ow, i find myself talking to my belly lately, saying things like 'what is goin on down there?' and 'Dont make me come in there'

of course, i think it would be interesting to see how i could 'come in there' when i can even bend half way over or laugh without disturbing Mr.Touchy, Mr.Touch-Me-Not, Mr.BigRedAndIrritable, and who could forget Mr.Cranky.

those woul be the pet names for my 4 incisions, so yes, i got laparascopy and as the doc puts it, the operation went fine.

so, heres what im shooting for. My Road of Recovery ends at being able to sit, stand up and walk without pain or discomfort - and taking painkillers to hidethe pain would be cheating. dont let me forget that one. as my favortie quote from Dr.House goes 'I dont have a pain managment problem, just a pain problem, but, of course, I'm too high off Vicadin all the time, it'd be hard to tell.'

i like House, its a good tv show. and, have you noticed, i used my new word 'favortie', my favortie fake word

alright, so i owe my mom a HUGE HUGE HUGE one and my dad a pretty big one, too. of course my brother is still in dept to Me, but i wont hold it against him.. too often...

mom has been the obsolete (hey, did i actually just spell that right? HA! im not in my right mind and i spell things i usually cant, how flipped is that... so i guess you could say my left mind has its strong points, too... unless of course i DIDNT spel that right, then it would just be expected) greatest she helped me, she helped me and she helped me even more. she's been there for me when the cute therapy dog, that reminded me too much of Max, at the hospital could not. she helped me at 2Am move upstairs into my room to sleep, and stayed home to make sure i was ok.

i o u, mom


and i was just thinking how the itchy rash smiley advertisement smiley guy on the left of the screen has nice blue eyes...

ok... moms home, yay.

ok, so my goal is to be wel enough to see a movie tomorrow. the... criteria? for that would be i have to be able to sit and walk well enough, painkiller helping is ok, and who knows? i always liked to think of myself as a fast acheiver. who knows? maybe i CAN go to gymnastics next tuesday. anyway, back to the movie, Ice Princess

now, i realize that if what i think what the plot is really is the plot, then the moviue would totally suk, but ill still enjoy the outside air, popcorn extra butter that i hopefully wont throw back up and just the fact that im not inside anymore, im on my feet and doing things - other things than just practising walking and breathing at the same time.

im gonna go talk it over with mom

BYE!

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hello again. sorry i havent posted in a while. was i too busy? *snort* i wish. i have been too busy doing nothing. yes, completely nothing. the TV now bores me!!!!!!! lol, im afraid to play Crazy Taxi before it bores me too!

oh, and im outta coke, lol, just waiting for mom to get home so she can get me some.

'well, jess, why not get up and out and get it yourself?' you may ask

 then i may answer 'well i'd just LOVE to!!!! Only i can barely get around the house, much less around the block for coke! and my own brother, my flesh and blood, wont help me out here!..... ok, so he's grounded, but thats beyond the point!!' lol

gosh, you know you're badly off when you start laughing at yourself.

ok, so surgery is not tomorrow, but next thursday, my pre-op is in monday, and i wont get out of school for it and then im planning to get back up and into the gym by the following tuesday.

 so 8 days to the big day where they cut my open and pull my insides out and 13 days to my first taste of real sweat in over a month.

i cant wait.

lemme go get a diet dr. pepper (im desperate here) and ill tell you about it

OK, LIKE 4 HOURS LATER, LOL

oops, sorry for the caps lock

anyway, the TV got me hooked.

GR! ok, really quickly cause i gotta get in bed, this vicadin stuff is seriously puttin me to sleep here.

my dad came home in a limp. a car hit him and about 40 mph. his arm and leg were hurt and he was loosing feeling in his arm by the time he got home.

the accident was completely his fault, he says, and didnt was to bother the driver anymore than he already had, so he just got in his car and went home.

now, he's at the hospital to find out if he's ok and everything. please pray for him. my family is down to one and a half functional people out of 4. lol. half because my mother, brother and i maybe even my dad too, have been suffering from migrains nonstop for  about 5 days now. theres something going around out here in nowhere's nowhere.

so, i gtg, bye!!!

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• Mood: hehehehehehe
• Music: hehehehehe - HELP!

CONGRATULATIONS! You have been identified as: Captain Canuck a.k.a Wil

Which Bravenet Blogger Are You?
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 i spontaneously chose : smudge!!! lol!!!

*uncrontrollable giggles*

this sure helps take ur mind off things....

hehehehehehe

*more uncrontrollable giggles*

is uncontrollable spelled like that?

hehehehehe

*even more uncontrollable giggles*

ok, who put what in my coke?

hehehehehe
 
*and yet more uncontrollable giggles*

HELP!!!

*uncrontollable giggles takeover*

why do i wanna spell giggles, gigles? lol

tis me: 0,0

hehehehehe

not the giggles!!! AHHHH!!!!!!

sorry, i gotta go find the small amount of sanity i left in the kitchen, bye!!

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• Mood: happy/ tired
• Music: this side, by nickel creek

 About time! it took me like 5 tries to get in this time!!i REALLY gotta find out whats wrong...

on a MUCH happier note, Nowhere's Nowhere's schools are closed!!!! Atleast they know when to give a kid a break and when.... to give a kid a break! lol, well, they do MOSTLY, there are a few calls i wasnt happy with at all.

And The schools Back Home are closed, too! they were always good with this kinda stuff, and so i look forward to chatting with my friends all day long and basically having a stress free long day....

much unlike yesterday. yesterday:

I came home from school, whent directly to store for brainfood, 3:30 - 8:30, homework. got done my spanish and 1 question out of about 20 for science. ill remind you, thats 5 hours of hard makeup work!!! makeup work i SHOULD' VE gotten when i was still out, so i wouldnt have to do this!!

andyou KNOW its gonna be worse:

schools out, meaning its a b day. here in nowhere's nowhere, theyre new at this block schedule thing. if there isnt school for a snowday, then you go right onto an aday, you dont make up the lost day. which is a Very Bad Thing. you see, now i cant go to math for study hall, and get extra torturing - *cough* i mean tutoring about the things i missed. or go to spanish and ask questions, preguntas, on the homework. i had any.

so now i have to call colin over cause 2 confused heads for algebra is MUCH better than just one confused head all alone being... well, being confused. And i can email CS and ask her about those spanish Qs.... *sigh*

oh and today, im not allowed to relax. i have a kitchen that needs cleaning, the cat got stuck in the closet again, so i gotta see if he did anything. we need more soda so i gotta go to the store, and i still have to do my science homework, and of course, math and spanish work.

bleh. did you know that the school has so much poswer over you, they can make you study on a SNOWDAY even tho SCHOOL'S CLOSED!?

well its true, im the living (i dont really call it 'living') example of that.

so i may as well get going!

schools out... schools out

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• Music: when you come back down, by nickel creek

 hey, ok so i got bored and dcided to surf jeeves about ovarian cysts (what i got) and it lead me to this site:

http://familydoctor.org/279.xml

yes, i am going to have surgery. on march 17. and i wont be able (or allowed ) to do gymnastics until a good while (2 weeks - 2 MONTHS) after..... now im left pondering the thought 'how on EARTH am I to survive THAT long without gym?!?!?!?!?'

perhaps the little perk that i wont have any PE classes for just that same length of time could help a little

ok, but about the site, what really freaked me out is that ovarian cysts can be cancerous. yes - the doc said she thought it looked non cancerous, but that a If , and MIGHT. bleh.

and yes, they are going to remove my entire left ovary. no biggy. the right one will comepletely take over. the only thing is that menopause will prolly come a lil sooner for me. but its not as if i was planning on having children.... but strangely now.... i kinda almost want to..... not really, tho.

where was i? oh yeah. the right one will totally take over for the left one. so its not as if i could only get pregnant every other month, lol, no, and its not as if ill havethe luxury of a every-other-month period. HA! as if my luck were THAT good.

*clears throat*

so i hae become a gum addict. i kno, bad for the teeth, but i cant help it, it help me concentrate. thats proly why im doing kinda bad in school - i cant concentrate!

and i have decided, what with the lack of gymnastics in my life, i will have to keep myself in shape  dont worry, i wont push anything TOO hard - just some crunches, upper/lower body lifts, you kno, that kinda thing. that way, i woont lose my beautiful, gorgeously kept shape by the time i get back to the gym - which wont be long, i promise.

as for the surgery, im not sweatin it in the least. ive had surgery before. i was an outpatient (i didnt have a lil sleepover  at the hospital) i was 6 and my earring got stuck in my earring hole. lol. go figure, eh? and im telling you, back in 1997, they still used gas to put you to sleep - and that stuff STINX!!! when i woke up, MAN did i ever feel naseous, lol

snap, i really gotta look up that word, lol.... nasous, naseus... mweh...

anyway, so at the hospital, they dont know if they can do laparoscopy [the belly button thingy] (if you havent gone the the sit listed above, you prolly should, or else i'll sound like im speakin a dif. lingo) or laparotomy [the insision thingy] and if it the last one, then ill be an in-patient (me and the hospital get to have a little sleepover for a few days!!)

i just hope they dont take any more blood, but i WILL get another IV.... maybe they could put in my left arm this time, so i can write, what do you think?

um, oh, yeah, Nickel Creek!

before the move, i was compeltely hooked on country music videos. And the station (VH1 Country, i think) played alot of nickel creek, and i feel in love with the nice and smooth bluegrass group

i swear, that girl has the most beautiful voice ever, and the unique sound of the Mandolin along with the violing and guitar..... *sigh* muy muy bonita. TresTres Belle.

you guys should check them out.

um, i think thats it

im gonna go brush my teeth and clean my room, now, bye!

.... im tellin you.... its the drugs man!!!

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• Mood: happy
• Music: unwell, by someone... no, matchbox 20, thats right...

JESSICA
J	is for	Jolly
E	is for	Enchanting
S	is for	Serious
S	is for	Spontaneous
I	is for	Intense
C	is for	Cheesy
A	is for	Alluring

What Does Your Name Mean?

JESS
J	is for	Joyful
E	is for	Energetic
S	is for	Sporty
S	is for	Special

What Does Your Name Mean?

hmmm.... im special....

KIMBERLY
K	is for	Kind
I	is for	Innocent
M	is for	Moral
B	is for	Bonkers
E	is for	Entertaining
R	is for	Responsible
L	is for	Lucky
Y	is for	Young

What Does Your Name Mean?

 bonkers?!?! how rude! i think not.

KIM
K	is for	Keen
I	is for	Intelligent
M	is for	Misunderstood

What Does Your Name Mean?

 lil ms.understood, lol

and i did it again...

KIM
K	is for	Kind
I	is for	Important
M	is for	Moral

What Does Your Name Mean?

 it gave me  a good laugh, lol.

they think i'm moral. much less kind! HA!! lol, j/k
other answaers inculed 'marvelous, keen, industrious', lol, and other things

CHEEK
C	is for	Comical
H	is for	Helpful
E	is for	Edgy
E	is for	Explosive
K	is for	Kind

What Does Your Name Mean?

 edgy i can digest, but EXPLOSIVE?!?!?! I DONT THINK SO!!!!! I DO NOT EXPLODE!!!

muahahaha

CHEEK
C	is for	Calm
H	is for	Hot
E	is for	Earthy
E	is for	Ebullient
K	is for	Keen

What Does Your Name Mean?

 hot? well... hehe, if you insist

CHEEK
C	is for	Courageous
H	is for	Happy
E	is for	Extreme
E	is for	Ebullient
K	is for	Keen

What Does Your Name Mean?

 me thinky me likey...

hehe, *shakes head* this thingy...

THOMPSON
T	is for	Timeless
H	is for	Hot
O	is for	Odd
M	is for	Misunderstood
P	is for	Placid
S	is for	Slippery
O	is for	Organic
N	is for	Naughty

What Does Your Name Mean?

  HA im naughty

ELISE
E	is for	Enlightened
L	is for	Loving
I	is for	Influential
S	is for	Sensational
E	is for	Enjoyable

What Does Your Name Mean?

hmmmm, im enjoyable

ELISE
E	is for	Excellent
L	is for	Legendary
I	is for	Intelligent
S	is for	Sultry
E	is for	Edgy

What Does Your Name Mean?

yep,yep that is DEFINITLY me
wait - what does 'sultry' mean...? lol

SAMANTHA
S	is for	Sappy
A	is for	Altruistic
M	is for	Magical
A	is for	Adventurous
N	is for	Naughty
T	is for	Terrific
H	is for	Honorable
A	is for	Adaptable

What Does Your Name Mean?

of course, im not too sure about this one.... what does altruistic mean?

SAMANTHA
S	is for	Stylish
A	is for	Alert
M	is for	Musical
A	is for	Active
N	is for	Normal
T	is for	Twisted
H	is for	Hyper
A	is for	Arty

What Does Your Name Mean?

yes!!! that is ME!!!!!! LOL!!!!!


ok, thats all, ill give u guys a break

PS, yes, i do realize i have just posted me name for all to see.... or maybe i havent muahahahaha

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